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AFC Staff badge and Con book.

Another year, Another Furry Con. Held at the Ontario Convention Center in Ontario, CA from September 19–21, 2025 for their second year. I had some responsibilities that limited my time and actions this time around, but I did everything that I could and had a great time in a different way from last year. For one, I decided to stay at a nearby hotel with some other staff members, which made things so much easier on me.

Stone house set installation.

Since I knew ahead of time that I was going to miss out on Day 0’s load-in and most of Day 1, I joined the Theme Team with Strypes and Kaluna over the summer to help build their photo-op set. This year’s theme was prehistoric, so we built this super cute stone house and various props for it inside and out. I got to contribute a little to the house, stones, and mailbox.

Friday
(Opening Ceremony, hotel movie night)

I arrived at the convention in the afternoon, picked up my badge and con book, and also grabbed an N95 face mask to use for the day. The mask smelled a little strange and chemical-y, but I figured I could deal with it after using it for a bit.

In the back of the Main Stage as a performer sings for a crowd.

I had about an hour of peeking around in the Artist Alley before heading to the Main Stage to prepare for the Opening Ceremony. We encountered a lot of technical difficulties which caused a lot of delays, and since I wasn’t as experienced as everyone else and had temporary physical limitations, a lot of my involvement throughout the weekend was mostly seated and observing, and I did feel bad that I wasn’t able to be active in helping with setting up nor with putting out the fires. But I got to see a lot of familiar faces like Goofy, Francois, Kyla, and Larcis, as well as got to meet Rae (whom I shadowed for lights), Itrio (whom I shadowed for visuals), and Kumo (whom I shared the light board with in the following night).

After my shift, I realized the chemical-smell from the face mask hadn’t gone away and was seriously getting to my head, and I was actually feeling pretty awful. Part of my vision had gotten blurry, which I thought might have been from seeing the flashing lights on the stage, but that had never happened before. I tried eating some of the food in the staff room, but my body just wasn’t allowing anything to be appetizing. I headed to the low-sensory room so I could rest my head for a moment, until I ultimately decided I needed to actually rest in a bed, so SaladForrest helped me into the hotel.

Bad Guys 2 on pause.

After sleeping about 2 hours, I felt a lot better and also got to meet my roommates Benskii, Gabe, and Byte. Silva, the con’s Console Gaming Lead and the organizer of our hotel room, brought us snacks as well as ran a movie night, where we watched Bad Guys 2. I think the movie was pretty alright and entertaining (though I do prefer the first). When everyone was heading off the sleep, I was reviewing some information I had taken from my short trip to the Artist Alley earlier.

Saturday
(Artist Alley, Maid Cafe, Night Market)

Last year, I was not prepared for the Artist Alley / Dealer’s Den at all. I forgot that it was a thing because I never went to conventions prior. So I made it a point to do it completely different this year: Made reference sheets, browsed the list of artists online, and of course, set aside a hefty sum of money to spend. (I’m not by any means made of money, still just living month to month, but this is now the second year of being a mostly-employed individual. There are many reasons why I wanted to spend a lot on art commissions, but those thoughts warrant their own separate post, so I digress.)

I had also wanted to print out the map so I wouldn’t ruin it in the conbook, but since I forgot, I quickly sketched it out on some regular paper and made my notes there. I physically got through about half the artist alley the day before, so I spent this morning walking to every corner and finalizing who I wanted to commission. Since I was purchasing from a lot of artists, I kept a log of everyone through a spreadsheet on paper that I had the artists fill out. It seemed much easier viewing a sheet like this in my opinion, as opposed to fussing around with many message logs on my little phone screen. It was also just nice to interact with the artists this way—letting them handwrite the information I wanted, as opposed to having everything all be digital. I even printed out my reference sheets for me to flip through and present to them.

Preparation for the Artist Alley.

After I got almost all my commissions locked in, I had two shifts at the Furry Maid Cafe. Like last year, I was an auxiliary staff member and helped maintain the space. I had to sit a lot more this time and couldn’t run around as fast, but I did the best that I could, and I just loved being in the space with everyone—seeing Baxter and Allspice again, and a few other familiar fursuiting maids/butlers. I have been learning sewing off and on throughout the year, and I just so happened to make an apron, which I got to wear during my shifts. On my break, I got to partake in some of the food. I chose the baked parmesan chicken, which was delicious. The picture doesn’t do it justice, nor does it pick up how glittery the dessert was. Just one of those things that you had to have been there.

Baked parmesan chicken pasta meal and dessert from the Furry Maid Cafe.

I had another glance at the Artist Alley after that to pick up some finished artwork. I also placed three more commissions and successfully spent the rest of my allocated funds. But of course, I then had to run off to my next endeavor at the Main Stage: the Night Market raves. With Itrio’s help, I got to do a little of the visuals for DJ Ajax Pup, which was my first instance of ever doing anything with the projected visuals. After that set, I moved over to the lightboard with Kumo for DJ Hushpuppy.

There was one moment that the music was starting to amp up, and I thought to myself, “Wouldn’t it be cool if I hit the white strobe on this next beat for just a second,” and the exact moment I did, the DJ just so happened to hit this laser-y sounding noise in perfect sync with my strobe. The crowd yelled, and the AV team cheered, and I felt amazing (again, I’m pretty sure I’m the least experienced person on the team, so it felt great to do something very cool, even by accident). Never going to live that down.

The night went on after my shift, so I tried getting my fursuit partial on and being on the dance floor. I didn’t enjoy it that much since I’m not much of a dancer, nor do I fare that well in a crowd, plus I could really use a new and improved fursuit head, and I definitely prefer being backstage, so it was a short-lived moment. But I’m glad I tried anyway. The lines were incredibly long, and I knew some people who spent hours in line just to get in, so I’m thankful I didn’t have to wait just to experience something I wouldn’t have liked. I truly belong in the booth.

Sunday
(Classical Morning, Closing Ceremony)

In the morning, I woke up an hour before my alarm, thinking “Awesome, I can go back to sleep.” When I woke up again, it was 20 minutes before my first shift was about to begin. No recollection of ever waking up to an alarm or turning it off or anything. So, I threw on my things and rushed out the hotel door and got myself to the Main Stage again for the AFC Classical Morning event, where musicians performed. Some of them were even able to play their instruments in fursuit, which I found impressive.

Issun and Alton performing in front of a crowd.

In the afternoon, I picked up almost all of my commissions from the Artist Alley and got to hang with Forrest, Mike, and Quasi here and there. Then, I joined the Main Stage one more time for their Closing Ceremony. Since I had responsibilities the next day, I couldn’t stay long after (nor could I help with load-out on Monday), but I was very much satisfied with how my weekend went. I volunteered as much as I could and had the time and funds to support so many artists. I saved up and had a specific goal of spending $1000 on art commissions, and I managed to spend it all down to the last dollar.

11 of the 13 commissions I got at the con (will update the image when I get the last one in).

Thank you for having me again, Another Furry Con. I am looking forward to what’s in store for next year, renamed to Anthro SoCal. (I honestly liked the original name, but I welcome this new one too.) I’ve already got some ideas as to what I want to wear to actually relate to the theme, as well as how I might want to navigate the Artist Alley, but I shall keep such matters a secret for now.

Haul of all my items from the convention.


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AFC Staff badge and Con Book.

Last weekend, I attended Another Furry Convention / Another Fur Con / AFC at the Ontario Convention Center in Ontario, CA from September 27-29, 2024 (plus the 26th for setup). It was their first year of being a convention, and it just so happens that it was my first furry convention ever.

Despite being involved in furry for most of my life, I hadn’t been interested in attending the conventions. If it wasn’t for the lack of resources for travel and other expenses (as well as living very far away from everything), I just didn’t feel like I’d enjoy being at them. A whole weekend of a plethora of options with full control of what activities to choose and with a sea of people I don’t know and no one to go with—it always just seemed like an overwhelmingly bad time. But as I’ve started my journey into technical production in the past year, I realized that I will find my joys in contributing to the convention as a staff member, rather than being a normal attendee. And that is what I did! I also looped Salad Forrest into volunteering.

Thursday
(Load-in)

On Thursday, I helped with tech load-ins to set up the stages. I got to meet the AV Lighting mains Nullreff and Goofy, as well as Francois, Aster, Silva, Shimo, Rapson, Lars, Kyla, Antwelm, Cole, and Percy. It seems most of the team stayed there all day into midnight, but I was only able to stay for the 8 hour minimum for free admission for the weekend because I had to get home and take care of other things: mainly installing a fursuit fan for my fursuit, as well as generally getting prepared for the weekend since I was too busy in the preceding days.

Road cases and trusses in the convention space.

It was a bit rough because we didn’t have access to the Staff Room, and the venue was very strict about not bringing food, but I ended up checking out a nearby restaurant for lunch at Pho K Vietnamese Cuisine where they had a drink special of a free thai tea with a meal purchase.

Friday
(Setups and Maid Cafe)

Friday began with volunteering with the Accessibility Desk where I met Pixie and LineMonkey. I got to mark out some seating areas with blue tape for the designated wheelchair spaces, and then continued helping with AV setup with Tlalli and Russec since a stage area still needed to be set up before ADA could finish sectioning out its seating. After that, I grabbed my staff badge from Echniel at the Registration Desk and headed to the Staff Room for food and briefly met Oreo.

I was very surprised at how stocked the area was, along with its peace and quiet which was amazing to relax in when I needed some time to decompress. There were even lunch and dinner times where they brought in meals—to name a few: Raising Canes, Panda Express, various salads and sandwiches… The food budget was spectacular, and it was a huge load off my back that I didn’t have to worry about taking care of food. It was also just nice to see all the staff members together and knowing that I am a part of such a team.

Anyway, one of the other things supplied was instant ramen, and there was a water boiling machine there too. There wasn’t any instruction for it, so I looked up the instruction manual online and figured it out. Eventually, some other staff members came in, one of whom was named Crake who was also interested in the instant ramen cups and wanted to use the water boiler. Seeing what situation was going to arise for anyone wanting a ramen cup, I went and wrote down some instructions on a napkin (which ended up lasting throughout the weekend).

Staff room tables full of snacks.

Then, I had a shift with AV Lighting at the Main Stage for some musical VR performances. I didn’t do much aside from setup and was more of a backup during the shows, but it felt cool to be at the back of the house with the AV team. A strange occurrence happened when one of the performers was cursing like crazy during a song—all the while there was the Furry Playground right behind the stage where children were hanging out, but… Oops! Well, that’s live performances for you. (If it were up to me, I would have gone and cut out the stream and pretended it was a technical difficulty or something.)

It was a pretty neat concept to have people from outside the con as a VR performer though. Aside from the large digital screens on the sides, there was an attempt at having a facade in the center of the stage—it was a bit hard to see, but it was a great idea that I’d love to see expanded upon for the future.

VRC Victory virtually performing on Main Stage.

After that, I was an auxiliary staff member at the Maid Cafe, led by Kitty and Baxter and staffed by all the lovely maid and butler fursuiters including (but not limited to) Allspice, Beau, Blue Hasai, and Hazel. No uniform or fursuit for me, I was mostly just added in as a gopher (AFC called them GoFurs, which was fun), but I got to help maintain the spaces so the maids could spend more time having fun with their patrons.

I cleaned up tables, took note of how long each table had been there, guided the guests to the photobooth, as well as reset the tables with new placemats and reorganized the activities. I was at that with Zhao who was maintaining the space alongside me, and eventually we got to have breaks that allowed us to partake in the food that the Maid Cafe served. They had an Italian menu, and we got to pick what options to put in our pasta, and they’d cook it right then and there. It was super lovely and special. And free for Maid Cafe staff, of course (the tickets for the attendees were $50).

Chef cooking my meal at the Maid Cafe.

At the end of the night, we got back to the parking lot and found that the car that I borrowed from Forrest’s relative had two main issues: 1. I left the headlights on and 2. The keyhole on the car door itself was not catching onto the key. We were a bit stranded in the parking lot since it was complicated to reach the car insurance. After a while of reaching out to all kinds of people for help—including coming up to random people in the parking lot (like Cosmo and his friend who so kindly hung out at our car for a bit and tried to help), calling Chip Unicorn at AFC’s Con Ops department and Amanda at Event Operations, messaging the staff Discord, and talking to Spencer in the parking lot security booth—we finally were able to get through to the insurance and called a tow truck to help us.

I had downed some apple juices from the con and desperately had to use the restroom by this time, so I ran back to the con, but security didn’t let me in because I was wearing a chain, so that was annoying. When running back to the parking lot, I ran into Kyla again, and then got Silva to let me run into his hotel to use his bathroom (because I guess I felt like doing that instead of taking off my chain and trying to get through security again).

When I got back, the tow truck was making its way into the parking lot. A group of people came up and were trying to flag it down, and I called out to them and apparently they were also having car troubles and were waiting to get towed too. We took a silly group picture together before they ran off back to their own car. After about 20 minutes of trying out different methods of getting in, Mark from the tow truck company successfully got our door open. Thankfully, the battery was just fine, and I got to drive us home (and then I drove my own car for the rest of the con weekend).

Saturday
(Fursuit Parade, Dance Competition Lights, and Fursuit Lounge)

I made my Kludge fursuit partial back in 2020, but I never had the means of wearing it around since I didn’t attend cons, plus I simply couldn’t wear it for more than 5 minutes because my glasses would fog up. With my fursuit fan installed, I finally got to wear my fursuit around and joined in on the fursuit parade. I got a few compliments, along with a short video centered on me (also, later on in the night, someone complimented me for my fursuit and especially its hair, so I got to explain how I made it). I got to enjoy wandering around in fursuit for the first time, checking out the areas like the Tabletop Games Room where Benji greeted us, and walking through the halls around other fursuiters.

Before I got to my next volunteer shift, I stopped by the Maid Cafe to say hi in my fursuit this time. Kitty took photos of us at the photobooth and even snapped a free Polaroid as a thanks for my service the previous day, which was super sweet. I won’t be uploading the Polaroid since someone in it doesn’t want their face shown, but here’s another photo Kitty took with my phone:

A few of the Maid Cafe hosts with Kludge in the center.

Next, was the dance competition, which I believe was called Fur Battle. This was a freestyle dance that I got to be on the light console for. I was given four buttons to press along to Goofy’s DJing, and I loved it. I hadn’t done too much with lighting in general yet, aside from some short staged plays last summer, so I tried to play it safe with some simple pulses to the beat, in hopes it wouldn’t be too distracting or blinding for the audience (looking back on the videos I took, they are a bit plain, but they at least served their purpose and stayed on beat).

The Fur Battle was as follows: Two dancers were chosen and brought to the dance floor, the first dances for 30 secs, the second switches in for their own 30, the music changes and the round repeats for a second time. After that, the three judges decide who wins the battle by holding out their hand in the direction they choose. Since one of my lighting effects was this horizontal waterfall, I decided to add in a little light effect of going in the direction of which dancer was chosen (as well as when they switched out during the dances). Take a look!

Dance battle between two fursuiters, and winner selection by the judges.

After the Fur Battle, I monitored the fursuit lounge near the main stage. I briefly met Cedar who filled me in on how to take care of the space. Nothing wild, just keeping the place tidy as fursuiters came in and out of the dance floor.

Sunday
(Artist Alley, Dance Competition Lights, and going home)

Since I was so busy with all my antics of the weekend, I hadn’t even gotten to see the Artist Alley yet. I didn’t have much time, but I managed to get my free shirt from the con store (a gift from the con for volunteering at least 12 hours) that was being managed by Rarushi, as well as bought some traditional commissions from artists named crosschopper and pawberry.

Art by crosschopper and pawberry, next to convention t-shirt.

I got back to the Main Stage to do more AV Lighting shifts—one of which was operating the lights for another dance competition. This competition was choreographed by the contestants ahead of time, rather than on the spot like the day before. Split Pixl, Lilac, and Amber showed me some more things I could do on the light console, so I had a lot more options. It involved quite a bit of movement and color changes to match the colors of the fursuit, so I had Split Pixl take care of those while I focused on getting the various pulses to match the beats and intensities of the songs.

Stage with all dance competition contestants.

Next time, I’m definitely going to familiarize myself with the tracks that we were given so that I could match up with the music a lot better—if I get to operate the console again, anyway. Also, I got Kyla to take some pictures of me at the lighting console, which was awesome. I bleached some stripes into my hair last month, attempted a bit of a skunk look (it’s not super apparent, especially at this angle, but hopefully it still looks cool regardless).

Selecting a color at the grandMA 3 lighting console. Photo taken by Kyla Fox.

After the closing ceremony, I sadly had to leave the con (I had work and other life stuff that evening and early the next day) and couldn’t stay to the end nor be able to help with striking everything down. But I did finally get to meet Parse Noire after being mutuals for a few years and got to play the game he’s been working on with his team.

Parse’s game “Rocketpult” on a Playdate handheld console.

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It was just fantastic. I ended up volunteering just a smidge over 30 hours total. That’s well over the requirement to get me free admission to next year’s con, but honestly, I think I’m just gonna keep volunteering from here on out. Attending as a staff member makes so much sense to me! I am already immensely looking forward to next year and how I can increase my contributions. A bit bummed out knowing well in advance that I’m gonna have to miss one of the con days next year, but I am excited regardless.

I hope I get to do some carpentry builds too—I’d love to build some large-scale stuff for the con or at least create some custom structures and continue to build upon my knowledge and help make the spaces unique and special. I also hope to have more time and funds to spend in the artist alley. I’d love to get more traditional artwork in general, and it’s especially exciting to have it created at the con.

Various items from my time at the convention.

Wow. 2024 has been the longest and best year of my life. Now that I have entered the vastness of technical production, I feel like my life has begun. I’m finally living at the age of 26. I’ve been getting jobs that are more fun than they are work, I’m getting connected with people and creating great things with them, and now I have gone to my first furry convention because now I get to be a part of its success.

This is so fascinating, I cannot believe how life has changed so suddenly. I’m just so happy.

AV Lighting Team listed in the con book.


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Hopefully the title is not concerning, it’s just a Hatsune Miku reference…

I’ve been busy

Well, it’s certainly been a time this latter half the year. Disappeared more than usual and more than expected.

Lots of ups and downs all the time, various stressors, new outlooks on life. Volunteered at food banks for a bit, climbed at a bouldering facility a few times each month. Car broke down 2 weeks ago (still broken). Went back to school as well: I was only planning on taking two courses at university so I could have time for art and job-searching, but I found myself joining a theatre class on a whim and discovered an intense love for scenic carpentry, so that was what took up most of my time, and has certainly altered the course of my life (or rather… actually gave me a direction to point my life in for once).

Not quitting art, ever

Shifting away from being online though, as I have a bunch of problems with being online now (scams, spam, AI art, mean people, etc.), so I’ve more or less cut out social media—which I guess is just Twitter, I don’t really count Tumblr since I pretty much just post art and run, as I have for years. Also still not really using Discord, I have an account now but never found the time for servers or messaging people or anything.

So other than Moderneopets and Goatlings (I use the sites’ currencies to get art from people nowadays), it’s art sites only for me. FurAffinity, Weasyl, Patreon, and Sheezy when it gets revived again. My website will be redone someday when I figure out what I want to do with it, but I hope to do some more experimentation on there. I’ve no plans in store yet, other than having fun with it, whatever it will be.

No commissions for a while (unless it gets bad, uhh)

With that said, I suppose I should bring up the topic of commissions. I don’t know if there are still any out there who remember me and would have wanted something from me any time soon, but I don’t know when I’ll be able to do art commissions in the near future anyway. The closest thing you’d be able to get would be subscribing to my Patreon for a few months and letting some points rack up and redeeming them, but the biggest thing you’d be able to get would be a simple animated icon.

I’ve got some leads on jobs thanks to the theatre stuff as well as the public library, but as of now, I’m still using savings and grant money to cover rent and it’s a bit scary, so if I do end up opening commissions later down the road, it’ll definitely mean I’m in a danger zone on finances. Hopefully it doesn’t reach that point, but if it’s not this, then I might end up taking commissions for car repairs at least—still in the process of figuring out what’s wrong with it, holidays are making everything complicated with that right now so yeah.

Personal projects and sponsorships

I really want to work on personal projects. I plan on putting up some sponsored projects up for anyone who would wish to support my artistic endeavors, but considering all you’d really be getting is a shoutout, I’m not really counting on it taking off since most people would usually want something in return for payment (and I’m not saying that’s necessarily a bad thing). But I’ll post up info on that in the coming weeks just in case that interests anyone. I already did my sponsored screentone traditional art project, so I know it’s possible.

The personal art will be made whether I get sponsored or not. It’s really just a way for people to support me if they like what I do and have the funds to do so. It’ll range from normal drawings to animations, you’ll see.

Just kind of leaving… in a way.

I know being online is the thing to do, everyone is online for anything and everything because it’s all at our fingertips, but I’m just not enjoying it anymore. Not shaming anyone who is online and having fun of course, but, I’m just not having as much fun anymore. The only online joys I get are the two aforementioned pet sites and YouTube, and of course FurAffinity when I get the opportunity to check the site, but yeah I don’t know. Hate to have an old man yelling at cloud moment but it just kinda sucks online and I want to leave. But I won’t, of course. There are still joys to be had, and this is the only place that feels the most comfortable to share my art and look at others’ stuff. I just kinda wanna live offline the most I can, and just pop in every now and then to show what I’ve made and see what you’ve made too. It’s an odd mindset to explain in words, but hopefully this makes sense in a way.


Here’s a rough art timeline for 2024:

January-February:
– Work on AMV 1

March:
– Open art trades for animated June icons
– Work on AMV 1

April-May:
– Make the icons
– Finish AMV 1

June-July:
– Sponsored projects / Personal drawings

August-November
– Work on AMV 2
– Start building an animated Telegram YCH sticker set (1 finished sticker each month)

December:
– Finish AMV 2

Subject to change, obviously. But these are some goals for myself with generous estimations of how things would go. Hopefully my new AMVs do not take me half a year, but I don’t want to stress myself out with hard deadlines while I am tackling another school semester and more job hunting. But I’m just putting this up here for myself as well as any soul who wishes to know what to kinda sorta expect for this upcoming year.


And… Yeah? I don’t know what else to say here, but feel free to leave a comment about this or whatever else. While I do not want to take things into DMs, I would love to have a brief chat in comments, as always.

Have yourselves a good rest of the year, and I hope this next one is a better one for all of us.

Merry Christmas and Happy Holidays,
Kludge


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Hey everyone. My commission prices aren’t changing, but my methods of payment are. They are strictly as such:

  • US-based commissioners – pay through US bank transfer via Stripe invoice
  • Everyone else – pays through credit/debit card via Stripe invoice
Effective the next time I reopen for commissions (in July, probably), and my terms on my site will reflect all the new changes by then. Also, the Stripe discount/sketch specials that I was doing will be concluding as well.

And that’s about it. I understand that these changes are weird and strange and therefore will bring even less commissions than the very few I already receive, but that’s alright. I’m very grateful to those who have commissioned me, but I could really use more time to do other things. I wrote a bit about those things below if you’re bored (it’s lengthy and might be boring, so there’s no requirement to read).

Thanks, everyone.


So yeah, I’ll be primarily taking payment through bank transfer. It’s pretty straightforward: I send you a Stripe invoice, which has a secure area for you to connect your bank to pay. The payment process itself after payment is quite slow (about 5 days or more) compared to all the other methods, but that keeps the fees low.

Screenshot of the bank transfer process for stripe

For the record, payments through PayPal are currently 3.49% + 49¢, and card payments through Stripe are 2.9% + 30¢ (but then there’s an additional 0.4% from the gross amount if using Stripe invoices). So, they’re nearly the same amount. I’d like to apologize for drumming up so much noise in the past about how low I thought Stripe’s fees were in comparison. That 0.4% invoice fee isn’t apparent until you pay out.

Doing a US bank transfer via Stripe is only a 0.8% processing fee + the 0.4% invoice fee. That comes down to just 1.2% for fees, which is nice to see compared to the other methods. International bank transfers get extremely complicated for both sides, so I’m just sticking to card payments for that. Commissioners outside the US are pretty rare for me, so it’s not a big deal.

But now onto the heart of the matter.

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I have to throw in most of the towel here. Commissions aren’t feasible for me. The time I spend on those prevents me from making personal art, and it kind of makes me forget that art is my passion and outlet of expression. When I do have the time for personal art, I feel guilty because doing so is not making money like art normally does for me, and so my effort on them gets pretty clipped. Patreon was supposed to help mitigate this, but because I don’t have time to create original content, I am unable to put anything unique and original out, and so there’s not much of an incentive for people to support it.

Furthermore, I just don’t get enough commissions to be able to live off of, and I can’t increase my prices due to lack of popularity due to what was said above. Then I have my own personal discomfort with the idea of me being a popular artist in the first place. Too many random people’s invasive eyes on you. Blegh

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I actually do want a job in real life, outside of the online art world. I have wanted one for a very long time. I want to be in a physical area, walking around and manipulating objects within a space, and helping people directly. I’ve never been given the chance to do this, I have never seen a payroll and do not know what a W-2 form does. Thankfully, I live in a new area now—away from the previous bad political climate I used to live in (which I concluded was one of the main reasons that prevented me from acquiring work)—and into a place around people I look a bit more like, so I think I have somewhat of a chance now. Just need the time and energy to get some volunteer work into those resumes, and see if that changes anything.

Art is a luxury. Art commissions are not a basic need for the commissioner. They’re something people can hold off on buying if they can’t afford it yet or if they simply don’t feel like getting something from a particular artist. And honestly, there are plenty of artists who make angular art better than I ever could (because they actually understand perspective and anatomy and color theory and shading), and now there are computer programs that can generate things freely and instantaneously, so I can’t see myself particularly needed in this regard.

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I’ll still be around online—still doing commissions even, but just for those who want to jump through some weird hoops. Huge thanks to all who have commissioned me at any point. Genuinely. You affected my life so very positively and prevented me from having $0 in the bank. I just need to angle my sights a bit and do something else if I’m to have a chance at surviving.

(It’s important to note that I’m not severely struggling right now. I’m using government funds to attend school, my parents support my sights on education so they pay my rent, I’m feeding myself through food pantry donations, and I have locked away all the bits of money made from commissions into an emergency fund to break into if all hell breaks loose. I’m relatively okay at the moment. But if I don’t do anything, I will be relying on my parents forever, and I don’t even have a good relationship with them, so that’s really weird and very complicated. I didn’t honestly want to further my education in the first place, but it was the only valid excuse to get me out of their home. I don’t know how else to put this, but I’ve got Asian parents, so. Heh)

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Man. I wish I could show you the 5 completely different blog posts that I tried writing up to make some kind of explanation post. This was the shortest one I could do. Hopefully it shed some kind of light onto how my life has been going and where it needs to go. Or at least was a bit entertaining to read.

Well, that’s where this post ends. I hope you enjoy whatever personal artwork I get to make from here on out, and maybe I’ll finally get to open free requests and art trades again someday.

scene from Ratatouille

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Been exactly two months since my last post—I’ve been super busy doing things for school. But I’m also learning things at school, and as I’m doing so, I’ve been getting inspired to revisit things I’ve made in the past and improve upon them with what I have learned.

I’ve already changed my logo twice this year, but I’m not letting that stop me. So here’s an update on that. I also want to archive how my page currently looks, so I’ve gone with a screenshot of my front page to kill* two birds with one stone.

I think my new logo is a lot cooler. It’s more fun to look at, more balanced, and less rigid. While I don’t want to prevent myself from continuing to make my logo better if I find even better solutions, I do hope that I’ll be sticking with this one for a while.

During this process, I decided to reach out to others and get their perspectives as I worked and refined it, which I hadn’t really done before. But it’s something fairly simple that I learned at school—getting outside of your head and hearing how others see what you’ve made. Very helpful.

Well, that’s all for today. You can check out where I went through the history of all my logos on this post if you wanted a refresher on what my previous logo looked like. That post doesn’t show the first logo I made this year, but it’s basically just a slanted version of what you see at the bottom.

*Weird that I can feel the liberation of being able to say “kill” on my own blog without any fear of being banned from a social media platform. Speaking of social media platforms, screw Elon for destroying Twitter. My heart goes out especially to the artists who mainly function(ed) on Twitter. If you have your own website, please share it with me, and I will check it regularly.

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